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It’s day 104 at my new place…things have been pretty okay……as expected, i am learning at my own pace, moving at a speed i can comprehend and picking up pieces as i move along….

i met some great people and friends, and some have left, one chap, ( still in touch with him ), told me something i already know, but had a hard time admitting it, he said, " life is a journey, not a destination". often, we seek a destination. we are always so caught up with setting targets, plans, and well..in short, destinations of our life….sure…i admit there is a great deal of goodness in planning, but life is not a DESTINATION….it can be journeyed along and we can see, feel, touch and hear things around us.

And this root from the need to feel IN CONTROL……well….i have stopped that and took life one pace at a time…..

I recently met a fellow auditor, who had enough of 4 years of sheer torture in the industry..and called it quits….he messaged me and told me he might resign, and i told him, if he is not with a wife, and two kids stranded needing food in the mouth, then there is no need for him to think twice on throwing the god damned letter….he did, the very next working day…..he said his happiest moment was when he signed the letter, and the high got better when he threw it in the face of his managers and HR people….i told him….the high will be the climax on ur last working day….when u can see a work-life balance and he can call me for fishing….

i mean, yeah i may be only 25….and still got like f*&^ing 25 years ahead of me, and maybe more…but i reminded myself i ONLY got another 25 years….and i am not going to make that 25 years go down the drain by working for someone or somewhere who calls u on a sunday when u are fishing to demand that u get ur ass to the office….life…is not like dat right??

My current boss, a sheer gentleman, explained it neat and clear to me….he expects me to work the late nights on field audits since i am already away and family is not around (NO field audits during public holidays stretch)….and as the deadline is tight, but once i reach homebase, i am expected to leave at 5.30 and go home for a family dinner…..and take it easy….its not too much to ask for, compared to "my previous" workplace and industry where it is expected that u stay on…….or else bonus is affected….ridiculous….i would rather screw bonus and get my bonus from a happier meal at the dinner table and laughing away with my friends and family….

In the light of christmas….as now i am more " christmasy" than before….( i guess the whole "hellish" experience i had on christmas last year in a foreign land where they pray only to lord buddha" really made me appreciate this year’s christmas more)…..its time for these selfish baskets of this cruel cruel industry to take a loooooong hard look at their resources and give them the moment where they CAN spend christmas or any other holiday seasons for that matter with their families… and not ask them to pack their bags off to a foreign land and missing the whole family gathering.

This year round, i am not going to miss christmas at all, not the midnight mass, not a single SECOND of christmas…i am going to sing praises this year, and will up my volume two notches to tell them all…..and will celebrate in the coming of our Lord…..

There is soooooooooooooooooooo much more to life than to prove u are so "worthy" to the Company by skipping public holidays in the name of work….

So what if i won’t drive my first Mercedes by 30, or get my own chaffeur by 38. i will get there, slowly but surely…….

Well…enough bitching about the industry and work as it is…..to anyone reading my blog, do have a heart for your own self….take this year as a reflection of what has happened to you in the past few years of your life ( my group of friends all also my age one la)….evaluate and ask if it is all worth it, ask urself if life is a destination or a journey??…….

till the next blog everyone, Merry Christmas and a blessed blessed new year =)